I have never attended an AA meeting. Neither would I want to, as (a), I am not an alcoholic and (b) I don't have an addiction to alcohols (though I do enjoy my wine every now and then). At the moment however, I feel like I need to attend a SA (Stress-aholic Annonymous) meeting and shamelessly admit I don't deal with stress very well. Instead of calm, I get myself (although not deliberately) into all kinds of twists and knots...
It's been quite stressful at work in the last 2 weeks. I foresee a challenging road ahead and no way of getting better. On last Friday, I had a deadline to meet at 4:00pm. However, due to factors beyond my control, I couldn't complete the task at hand until 4:58pm. At 4:00, my insides were already trembling. I felt dizzy and nerve-wrecking and I feel I couldn't breathe. When the auditors dictated final changes to be made on the phone, I couldn't concentrate as my mind keeps telling me, "lodge the report at 4:00pm!" No matter how many times after that and at work today when I was told, "everything is alright" and "it's not your fault" - I felt I had failed. Trust me, at the time of the incident (ok... I may have exaggerated a little, slightly), it did feel a little like a life or death situation. Like your whole career is dependent on this deadline. On one occasion, I snapped at my poor colleague who is usually calm and collected whilst she was trying to help me to finalise my report. (Sorry AD!)
I am dying for a holiday, desperately...
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